Mornings & Days After

I normally feel jaded in the mornings; not hungover exactly, not nauseous or afflicted with a headache. I can get on with the daily routine - getting ready for work, getting to work, working. I don't know if that's because my body is saturated with alcohol: maybe I'm never fully sober? It is a chore though.

I'm not sure why I drink so much either: there are days when I'm at work or on the way home from work and I think 'I shan't drink tonight', but when I walk in through the door I am carrying alcohol of some description. We don't have wine or beer in the house, as I drink everything I buy. I can't open a bottle of wine and then leave it unfinished. We do have vodka & gin, as I don't touch those -normally. That way leads disaster and days off work in recovery.